Suicidle thoughts bullies :(?

Well if you want to hear my story a boy has the same one named ryan, he commited suicide and his stories like mine. It started off in 5th grade i was the class punching bag. I had no disabillity so i felt all the pain with nothing to screw with the sadness. I was picked on by everyone. I tried to prove myself as cool, a boy asked to fight me at his party so i came. He got everyone who hated me to be judges, when i won the fight they all said i lost. in six grade a boy named _______ was picking on me, he was a bad boy. When i got home from my bus he and his friends approched me. The kid was smaller so i thought i could win if he tried to atack me, he did. I got on top of him and pined him down trying to get some distance. he took off his shoe and started to atack. He kicked me in the noes while i was aming for his face. I was down, at school everyone laghed at me and called me names and took off their shoe and teased me. Later in the year we had a feild trip. We went to a place that had beds and bunks. The people who i was with war crazy bad boys. One night i was going to bed and three kids jumped me i tried to struggle out but i couldn't one kid was nuts and thought he was cool so he mooned me and started comming towrdes me with his moon.... then i stuggled out and ran out side. Everyone was searching for me and i listend in from the window. I heard the kids blaming it on each other. I walked back in and they said sorry and it wouldn't leave the bunk. after the feild trip at school everyone was talking about the boy who got butt _____ girls even teased me and that was a first time. That was the first suicidle thought. Next year my friends turned on me i was left lonaly and sad this is my story im still here... for now